Emptiness..

i miss my "bestfriend".. all i want is for her to be back..as my bestfriend, im still hoping for that even though it's already impossible to happen.. i admit i broke my promise to her but why can't she understand me and give me another chance to prove to her that i will never hurt myself again..i just don't know the reason why she has to give up our friendship..its very unfair for me because even though she hurt me before and ignored the things i do for her, even me, i didn't close my heart for her and i still do good things for her because i want to do my part as her bestfriend but why can't she realize that, i admit,im tired of being hurt,but im willing to get hurt just for my bestfriend,i can't afford to lose her because i will never find someone like her, i only want her to be my bestfriend again..i just love my bestfriend..and now,i kept on blaming myself on what happened,i cant accept that i lost one of the special people in my life,the very special and important friend..i'll always love her..

and now, i just don't know the purpose of changing if she's not here..